As you may have noticed in my post
“obsession” I had quite a freak out when group finished two weeks ago. Both the
ideas of going it “alone”, and making a permanent change to the way I think and
behave with regards to food and my body were pretty scary!!
I managed to stop freaking out quite so
much by doing lots of reading of different blogs and other resources I’ve found
about body acceptance and non-dieting approaches, but I was still noticing that
some of my bingy behaviours were starting to creep back in. I had a couple of
days where I definitely and deliberately ignored my hunger signals and ate
beyond the point of being comfortable. I probably wouldn’t have called these
binges in the past – but I think what is considered a binge or inappropriate eating
for me is getting to be less and less in terms of quantities of food as I
“recalibrate”, and more about the feelings, thoughts and “process” that happen
around it.
You can imagine that this was pretty
worrying – although I wasn’t yet “out of control” I was starting to feel like I
was on a pretty slippery slope to telling myself that I’d just “start again on
Monday”.
It was in the middle of all of this that I
came across this picture posted on Facebook by the “Am I hungry?” Mindful
eating program page.
It struck me Binging and/or Overeating are
habits for me – it’s my default position – if I’m happy, sad, bored or
procrastinating I eat. Sometimes I eat for no reason at all. Sometimes I eat
because I’m already full!! I already knew all of this, but seeing this post was
just what I needed to get me thinking about the habits that I do actually want
to be cultivating in my life, to replace this habit of overeating. So, I can
now reveal to you –
Lauren’s healthy life habits!
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Eat with regard to my hunger
and fullnesss signals most of the time
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Focus on eating a healthy
balance of foods
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Gym 4 times per week – two spin
classes and two weights sessions
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Taekwondo twice per week
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Daily meditation
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Do what I’m supposed to be
doing!
These are not ridged rules to be followed
and to beat myself up about if I don’t reach them, but just things that I think
are healthy balanced habits to have. I’ll aim to eat mindfully most of the time
– but if there is an opportunity to eat lemon meringue pie I’ll probably eat it
even if I’m not hungry! However, I will savor it and not ruin the experience
with guilt. I’ll focus on improving my fitness and strength; I want to start
meditating again because I know it helps me with my anxiety. Finally, I really
want to work on my tendency to procrastinate! This is something I need to
explore strategies on – I’m really good at doing everything other than what I’m
supposed to be doing and the digital age makes this so easy!!
Lauren, that's a great list! And I believe you are on to something that repetition helps rebuild our auto responses. Now after all of these months I actually feel at times I want to grab my recorder to talk about feelings when they bubble up, when in the past I wanted to grab food. I 100% believe Intuitive Eating is the path for me too. Have you been to the community at http://intuitiveeatingcommunity.org? If not, I highly recommend it. It's one of the resources I use when I'm feeling a bit lost or for a re-tune of focus.
ReplyDeleteHi Laurie,
DeleteThanks for stopping by! So far the list is going well. We absolutely have to make self care - in whatever form that looks like for us - a habit I think!
I haven't been to the intuitive eating community - will check it out!